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Published on November 2, 2007 By Buddah Moskowitz In Poetry
Here I go again

secretly picking up
my favorite blade
and cutting myself

I don't know
what I'm chasing
but sometimes
I find it

perhaps someday
I'll no longer need
to pick at the scab
and feel the sting
as I tear
my beautiful brown skin open
to provide a canvas
for all this pain

sometimes
if the skin is intact
I will swallow it
in a shameful communion

"this is my body
broken by everyone"


and as the full rich red
slowly drips
down my forearm
I taste it
and am not surprised
that it is flavorless

"this is my blood
drink this in remembrance of me"


I replace my bandage
and roll down
my longsleeve shirt
and rejoin the party.


Comments
on Nov 02, 2007
Ouch. Very descriptive Mr. Moskowitz. I know this is probably hypothetical, but lately I've seen quite a few programs and even movies about people who do hurt themselves the way you described here. I can understand why someone would choose such an outlet, understand without judging or condoning their actions.

The last paragraph paints such a vivid image of life for so many.
on Nov 02, 2007

but lately I've seen quite a few programs and even movies about people who do hurt themselves the way you described here. I can understand why someone would choose such an outlet, understand without judging or condoning their actions.

I know people who do...and I try to discourage that.  Like you said, I'm understanding but not condoning.

~Zoo

on Nov 02, 2007
wow. vivid and wow.
on Nov 04, 2007
Hey Buddah, there is something about this one that sends shivers down my spine. Well done...

BTW, I have forwarded you a couple of MP3s of my poems. Let me know what you think.
on Nov 04, 2007
Wow, Buddah. Profound and errie and always so...good.

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on Dec 16, 2007
wow buddah, I just found this. Very clever and more than a little bit creepy...but I'm going to assume you were going to for that sense.